Bedridden 💔

Been trying to get things done in my house because they’re coming to steam clean my carpet and I’ll be damned if activity doesn’t make my heart hurt.

Am I supposed to just keel over and die on the street now?

I’m fighting too hard for this life? 🤔

I know I owe you content 👀

I wanted to do more than “oh look a photo of me naked“ 👀

I’m always cold now 👀

“Tiredness” errrr extreme lethargy – literally have spent most days IN my bed under a heating pad

And the pain that was starting to go away I can feel consistently now because I’m fucking doing shit and pushing myself

All I want to focus on is my writing and my art

But all I seem to focus on is my broken fucking heart 💔

Freestyle

“Increasing its surveillance”

“Increasing its surveillance” – now we’re getting down to the bread and butter of this thang since we have moved into a Hitler state with the “Bush signing statements”

It means 1984 is now, I’m not allowed a fucking personality, information control, where is my freedom of speech???? It’s gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This pandemic was manmade to control the population – So Big Pharma could get the money back they lost when weed went legal – or many became “anti vacinners” and they’re creating fear and then swinging in with blankets covered in Smallpox! 👀

Go ahead and unfollow me!

Go ahead and crucify me!

I’m not gonna shut the fuck up!!!

My war is with the 1%. If you continue protecting this madness, I will see you as the enemy.

This is not the time to be picking war with me 👀

And don’t even get me started about India being responsible for that fucking variant

What don’t they have their hands in?

Asking for friend 👀

(And Biden is puppet – I warned you – But you were more interested in how cool it made you look to vote for a certain party so you could get laid. Right?) 🙄

And today I don’t know if I forgive you

You don’t get to help me and ghost me too

😑

Yeah

Everything we were taught and told and restricted from doing has become the norm and I’m fucking unhinged

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMeWE8MUm/

I’m glad I’m not the only fucking one who is calling this what it is – fucking peer pressure

And I was laying here dying from the vaccine and you were going “oh but I didn’t read about that on the CDC website“

My heart hasn’t fully recovered

I keep telling y’all that we are in a Hitler state and that we lost our rights with the Bush signing statements but it’s like nobody’s fucking hearing what I’m really saying

Freedom of speech?

How? When? Where?

It’s gone!!!!!

Wake the fuck up!!!!

My newest TiKTok is now my most viewed (in under 24 hours too)!

My newest TikTok went number one on my channel! 👀

Over 700 views in under 24 hours 👀

I am shook (I wasn’t expecting this at all)

(I was prepared for it to flop)

But thanks for making it my number one watched TikTok! 🥳

👇👇👇

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMeWgR3TD/

It’s a mood

vm.tiktok.com/ZMeW5AGP7/

🖕🖕🖕

My new TikTok is getting some views! It got a few likes too! I was just messing around trying to learn some new tricks (that everyone else makes it look so easy) cuz I wanna make some more! I wasn’t expecting it to get past 50 views or even any likes. But it has! Cool, thanks for watching!

🥳🤪🥳

Vaccines causing heart problems 👇👇👇

apple.news/ATlAqVyMyRaiY9gn3iR0VHg

Don’t say I didn’t warn yah

(And the CDC is gaslighting the truth)

Compliance is easier than knocking down the doors and cheaper too

(Moderna caused me heart problems)

Do you fucking believe me now?

Or do I need to die first?

Or, you need to read it in an article?

WOKE

Don’t even care if it’s a true story; it’s a story I can actually get behind

They did the same thing 2000 years ago when they clearly manipulated the truth –

After centuries of burning people and crucifying people and stoning and drowning people – we are literally born into fear and bondage

Trained and ready for the revolution

I will lead 💪

Hashtags = information control

I mean I lost my trust in hashtags when I realized even those could be manipulated because big bro actually put out a notice and let us know that during elections they had been manipulated and now I know better how the explore feed works and how they focus more on popular accounts and those with lots of followers – those influencers who are actually selling stuff and Insta makes money from

It’s a dog eat dog world

Humanity is the Titanic

Stop hashtagging, They only use them to track you and control information!

The algorithm bots love the hashtags

If you’ve got a checkmark by your name, I probably already consider you the enemy

👀

Labeled a whore

She liked my comment and then replied to mine but by the time I had finished my thought out response to her kind comment- She had already sneaked over to my profile and decided to silently bodyshame / deem me a whore –

by unliking my comment and removing her reply

🙄

And her profile is all about spreading love

HYPOCRITE

Self-reminder: Jesus made Mary Magdalene his other half and left her in charge to carry out the message but she was bodyshamed and mostly removed from the bible.

She has a gospel too

But Big bro isn’t the only one who knows how to control information flow

But also, just fuck you Jennyi

I must be doing something completely right to have the entire world hate me

😑

Americans be woke

My blog is blowing up

💪💪

Yo listen up

You don’t need any courage – I got that 💪

My issue is with the system – and the NWO / 1% / Illuminati

The world could fall apart and nuclear fallout could go on and I’d have my fucking uniform on and be starting up the army so it’s cool man because I am 1000% dedicated to being the soldier I was trained to be and wanted to be

That vet that was behind me that was old-school army going off about the masks not working, man I had to step back and get into his bubble to understand his worldview

“You know something’s wrong / you felt it all of your life / you didn’t know what it was”

The Matrix is actually a REAL story

👀

“Most of the people are still plugged into the system and they don’t want out”

“Some if them can’t handle the truth, their mind breaks”

“What truth”

“That you are a slave, Neo”

“Born into bondage”

The great fucking pyramid scheme

That goddamn triangle is the illuminati’s favorite fucking symbol too isn’t it

Everything they’re doing to us is to keep us distracted from what’s really going on

We definitely moved into a Hitler state with the “bush signing statements” over here in America because now big bro isn’t even allowing people to post fucking comments now I’m going to peoples newsfeeds and there are things being literally hidden and not shown others have fact checkers on them and I mean it’s information control and I do not like the future we are moving into this is not where I wanna be

If you wanna know how to be able to live in peace and harmony you need to watch the film “Thrive” and it came out several years ago now

I mean it touches base on aliens and all kinds of stuff if you can get past like the first half hour or so the ending is fucking phenomenal man and it shows you how we could be living and that’s the life I want for us

Hope you make me your movement in the future for a revolution

I want my name next to the enlightened ones like Jesus Christ and Jim Morrison

Martin Luther King and Michael Jackson

Tupac

Who else has openly spoke out against the Illuminati?

“You’re all a bunch of fucking slaves! What are you gonna do about it?” – Jim Morrison

👀

Keep numbing yourself with liquor and TV

But I’m gonna go down fighting

👀

In my bed – like Michael Jackson

“Everybody gone mad”

And he couldn’t escape the illuminati no more than Britney Spears can

Free Britney!!!

Everybody be on her Instagram, “Why is she telling us this was posted 20 minutes ago, does she need help?”

She’s not working right now

I stand with my girl!

Stop picking on her!

Phew what else 🤔

I don’t know if y’all can handle anymore fucking unplugging information tonight can you?

Red pill or blue pill?

You wanna see how far the rabbit hole really goes?

And I’m not joking about Apophis – you should be slightly concerned about the 2066 fly-by.

That’s the one that’s got the scientist worried because they miscalculated

👀

And they have some new way of measuring the distances and now they are more accurate

I think the scientists are now going to start playing bowling with astroids and potentially could make something be even more catastrophic and worse than like the million mink that they fucking slayed over in Denmark over Covid – they just get free will to do whatever the fuck they want while we are fucking slaves huh

And yeah, most people are born, brainwashed very young to believe something- we’re literally peer pressured and gaslit over religion!

Keep you in emotional chains and tell you that lust is bad and then the same fucking entity that makes the Internet and shit will toss porn in your fucking face and take your money there too

And then they make you feel guilty about that so you go to church and you pay them fucking money so that they can build more fucking statues and drink out of their golden chalices you believe these fucking fairytales

Or what you get burned at the stake if you don’t – fucking crucified – yeah fear is definitely fucking bred – and schools teach their bullshit propaganda

You still have a chance to become a good person

Helical

Storms take on the form of a spiral
Helical
Like a liar
Your energy
It must be viral
I’m running circles
An endless cycle

© Delia Ross. 2021

Was just having a bath thinking how water must be similar to a black hole and vice versa – The Fibonacci sequence – galaxies – how storm clouds on Earth are the same as a gas giant like Jupiter- it’s the same patterns and makeup. Snails. Biology. Poem. 🤓

It’s hard for me to even understand the concept of a black hole but I’m trying to with water.

It drains

👀

So do galaxies.

Where does all that gas stuff go?

The multiverse?

Because I’m believing more and more in a multi-verse than a big bang.

I’ve only just now understood that Jupiter is two times farther away from us than the sun, which is why it looks so tiny.

I thought Jupiter was just smaller but I knew it was far away I just didn’t realize it was that far away

👀

So what they gonna do when they reach another galaxy?

Give them a bible and start the same routine? Burning people at the stake for not believing?

Fear, it’s molecular now innit.

😑

They called Mary Magdalene a whore too and tried to erase her from the books, sound familiar?

Medical update

I’ve been writing like hellfire but first

My heart is feeling better – as far as the constant throbbing pain goes

The extreme lethargy has not gone away

I still don’t like the taste of food unless it’s junk

There’s this weird metallic taste in my mouth

There’s this taste like my brain chemicals have been messed with

👀

I’m still having chest pain

It’s not as scary bad

Like maybe that heating pad actually has been helping – plus time

I’ve never been so tired in my life

I actually felt my body sweat for the first time today but you know being called a cheap whore doesn’t fucking help the stress

It’s nice to actually feel my feet and armpits get warm

👀

I don’t really like eating food anymore but I’ve been forcing myself to eat

I’m starting to learn that there’s a lot of things I don’t actually like anymore

Like how people use art to harm

Like how banks hide criminal activity

But if I told my doctor I wanted to fucking kill myself they would fucking take me away

Not just any doctor but my fucking therapist- the one person that I should be able to tell anything too – but yet a banker and like anybody can get away with anything – Like moving large lumps of cash but yet my bank will freeze my fucking debit card if I try to spend anything over $500 or $200 -whatever it is, I gotta call and get approval to spend my own goddamn money because it’s been declined and that is embarrassing – wtf

But these bankers and criminals get special treatment?

🧐

Wait – Nothing against you wanting a sex change operation but menthol cigarettes are now banned by the FDA

🧐

Biden wants to nuke Russia

He’s such a good little puppet (I forgive you for voting for him I think)

All the Hollywood anti Russia propaganda

Mark fucking Burgess is still alive

😑

🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮

Oh wait, medical update right 👀

I don’t like how tired I feel all the time

I have three test pending being scheduled -all related to my heart – and I was approved for getting community care – which means I don’t have to drive all the way to Lake Nona 76 miles away one way for just one of those test times 3

Now I’m waiting on community care to call me with the appointments and for the VA to approve it- pay for it – all that fucking shit

It’s actually a relief I don’t have to drive to Lake Nona even though it’s a gorgeous hospital because I-4 is like playing Russian roulette 👀

Nobody around here likes the I-4

Avoid I4 at all costs

👀

Interstate Four

I feel a poem coming on

I hateeeeee the I4

👀

I’m not sure where community care will be, it could be New Smyrna Beach, it could be Ormond Beach, it could be Daytona Beach, I don’t know yet, I hope it will be in my city Daytona Beach.

I don’t think anybody really knows what the fuck they’re doing anymore

I mean there are a few people out there who are really into their job and they’re really good and occasionally you run into those really good people and that’s why you wanna fucking support them

I’m praying my doctor never leaves! 🙌

You feels?

👀

I’m 4 weeks in now after dose 2 (I think) But she told me recently at my appointment that the signs and symptoms I’m having can go on for weeks (I believe she said 6 to 8 or longer)

I’m ready to ride my bike

Be active again

Rebound!

Cosplay!

But I’m so tired I can barely keep my eyes open

The last couple times I tried to push myself a little bit around the house my heart started hurting worse

I really don’t wanna die over this

So even tho the pain has lessened – and even my anxiety a little – I’m still having other symptoms.

I’m not on vaca

I’ve done a lot of crying over this because it’s been very very scary

👀

I’m still begging my kid not to get it

And now I’m reminding my kid that their dead daddy was an anti-vacciner, so now I’m playing that fucking card

👀

And like most kids these days (and adults) we live on pizza, tacos, sugar, and salt. It’s literally clogging our arteries – And then you’re going to inject yourself with a vaccine that causes blood clots (well the CDC have at least admitted that it causes blood clots in one – but you know it does in the others too – come on – don’t be fucking stupid y’all. If it does in one (that’s only 80% effective, imagine what the 94% effective one does) 👀

Well I had my doctor look into it and she actually said that what I’m going through is Covid related and I’ve only been experiencing Covid related issues since my body was injected with the Covid fucking vaccinations. Yay? Sound on?

So – You eat shit that clogs your arteries and then you’re going to inject yourself with a vaccine that causes blood clots and then you’re going to go in annually to get your booster shots? 👀

The CDC need to list the rare side effects on the website. Be transparent! Like you force Big Pharma to do!

This vaccine is a prime example of peer pressure

👀

This vaccine nearly wiped me out and I don’t want my fucking kid to get it ever but they have their own body to make their choices for and their own household to run

👀

I’m not saying you shouldn’t get the vaccine but the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree so I definitely want my kid to stay away from it

I can’t enforce it

And I still believe that they will enforce it by making vaccination records mandatory in order to enter certain areas

I know for a fact they will enforce it on all militia

Yeah I had a choice right now 👀

That four page article I read by the CNN about the native American Indians really pulled on my heartstrings though they really fucking got me

👀

I will never be getting any booster shots- even if they enforce it, they will have to hold me down

So there’s pressure in my chest (Some sort of tear or pull in my muscle – which is my heart)

I’ve been taking it easy.

My only agenda is to get better and survive this.

I told my kid, please just wear their mask, wash their hands. I swore by the CDC! 😑

The CDC were my bible.

😑

People have died from these vaccinations and the CDC need to be transparent about the rare side effects that are going on.

I’m certain my doctor is reporting to the right channels.

Overall, I’m feeling better than I felt a few nights ago, I wasn’t as hopeful

The pain has lessened – not diminished

I still have extreme lethargy, issues with my sense of smell and taste (which will effect your mood and will to eat stuff that just taste bland and off).

I’ve been eating a shit ton of cashews and walnuts, pecans, pistachios, and all the healthy nuts basically

Food doesn’t taste the same. Pizza didn’t change so much. Candy bars, sweet and salty the tongue can distinguish

But like why does everything else taste like more food I’ve just cooked and wasted

I’ve barely been cooking because just doing normal duties around the house have proven challenging but even frozen stuff or canned food is going to waste!

My heart just needs rest like it’s never needed it before

And less stressors going off

Jesus didn’t like how the world was either, bless his heart ❤️

I don’t like where the future is headed but I need to put that in a poem so I wanna get offline now

I’m attempting to get a cosplay set done

And it’s not that I don’t wanna!

I’m exhausted! 😑

So it may be just a little set for now 😑

And people are already anxious for me to launch my new OF but it’s coming – you just have to have a little bit of patience. I need to get caught up on my campaigns first.

I probably shouldn’t of gave the secret away too soon!

My heart actually physically hurts – even tho not as bad – activity does make it worse.

I miss working out! I had finally found my grove!

Thanks for having patience with me!

I’ve been writing poetry and I will get it posted soonish!

I just needed to get shit off my chest!

I’ve had a hard time editing and stuff lately so if you notice more spelling mistakes than normal, it’s probably the lethargy.

Having a brain injury doesn’t help.

Neo: “Why do my eyes hurt?”

Morpheus: “Because you’ve never used them before. Get some rest…”

👀

I have been unplugging a lot today. I wonder if anyone else unplugged?

Or do your eyes still hurt?

If you call for me, I will come. 💪

(But at some point Neo had to help Trinity cuz she had some heart issues too)

(Everyone falls)

(I just want someone to be there and love me when I do)

(Or in the fantasy world, inside the Matrix)

(This nightmare we’re all in)

(Thank you Asia)

(Or India)

*laughs insanely*

(I don’t need anything fancy when I die just toss me in a hole don’t take out my blood don’t take out my organs fuck whatever they came up with because they ruined the afterlife that’s not what it supposed to be about I want to take 10,000 years to fucking deteriorate OK). You can’t have my blood, my organs, nothing when I die!!! Put me in the earth!!!!!!! Why is that illegal? Why am I forced to spend money on stufff!!!!!!!!!!! I’m sick of money and stuff!!! I want something real!!!!!! I want love!!!!!! You can’t have me when I die!!!!!! Put me in the earth!

I am made of the earth and the moon and the stars and I don’t want you taking out my life force and pumping me full of your fucking chemicals when I’m dead

I don’t want your fucking chemicals while I’m alive

I bathe with vegan products most of the time – and more often than not just prefer the water!!! You don’t need all that stuff!!!!

👀

(Please don’t hate me)

“If the world hates you, remember that it hated me first” – Jesus Christ

Native American Indian is my bloodline

My people were doing just fine before you came over here screaming “savages” and tried to kill off my entire bloodline and now you label me a racist and a whore

🖕🖕

We live off the land but you live off of money, corruption, and power and label us the savages, strip us of everything we own, and then give us a reservation like it’s a fucking privilege

I’m just waiting for someone to tell me I’m fucking wrong

Without calling me a whore in the process

“Now you’re selling your body on the cheap” 👀

Oh my fucking God, stop the press, I’ve been called a whore again. 👀

He’s mad at me and now using that disgusting piece of shit ex of mine as a bomb to hurt me *rolls eyes* 🙄

Mark did scam me out of a lot of things, but my real love and heart he never got. He kept my pussy dry literally. Keep reading on to learn more 👀

(I went no contact from Mark – he posted on my blog when he got back with one of his exes, I didn’t go to The Chameleons blog – he came to mine. He’s a narcissist and I’d gone no contact but he was desperate for me to know – he’s desperate for me to love him. I don’t. I can’t stand Mark Burgess. He’s the plague and I want NOTHING to do with him. He never pays taxes, he lives rent free off the women he abuses. He’s a scumbag and writing music doesn’t give you the right to do the monstrous things he has done and continues to do. He’s a menace and needs burned at the stake, along with all the books and music. Erased from history is the only ending he deserves. Of course, he leads everyone to believe that the women are the problem even tho it’s the women running from HIM. And he moves from one relationship to the next. Claims true love every time. He taste like death. 🤮🤮🤮

I did a runner from Mark Burgess because he is the plague and you should stay far the fuck away from him.

I don’t like or love him.

I couldn’t even get sexually off from him

I couldn’t even get wet down there 😑

I don’t like Mark Burgess

I don’t love Mark Burgess

And you don’t get to act like you’re my best friend and then turn around and call me a whore just because I have a political fucking opinion about what’s going on in the world and I actually have a right to say something about what’s going on in the world because I’ve actually served my fucking country you piece of shit

Look at all this charming smooth talk via PM tho. You always wanted me to chat with yah, never did/would tho. Hell, you invited me into your home and offered to pay for my hotel.

But now publicly suddenly I am one of the worst things ever and a whore and I’m selling my body on the cheap

🧐

👇👇👇👇

👀

I never did give him what he wanted though- my time or my friendship and now look at him calling me a whore 👀 from inviting me and paying for my hotel to calling me a fucking whore 👀

He says I think the world owes me everything and I’m selling my body “on the cheap”

👀

But he was just inviting to pay for my fucking hotel room

👀

Now I’m a whore and he’s siding with that piece of shit Mark 👀

I am called a whore / you’d give me your dinner?

For the record, I don’t need anyone paying my hotel bills when I travel, I do that on my own.

I normally stay with my best friend who is a female – I’ve visited her in England twice staying with her 2 weeks on each visit.

I also helped with food and the electric and left her some moneyzzz cuz I’m not a complete bum.

She did not ask me to do this. Flights anywhere are expensive – and I’m happy to stay with my REAL FRIENDS when I visit if they invite me.

I’m not rich nor ever have been.

I was not born with a silver spoon.

I’ve always had to work 3 jobs to make ends meet.

I do not feel bad or guilty for stripping to eat or pay my bills.

You don’t get to invite me into your life and then call me a whore after and not get sandblasted.

He was always denied tho – as you can see – I don’t talk to anyone.

Prime example why

They all want to fuck me for free

Yet I’m called cheap

👀

Yea, I’m the problem clearly

Fuck off now

Run back to Mark Burgess

You’re both twats

Stop acting like you don’t have a porn addiction or that you are all holy and can call me your friend and then a “whore” (but only after you offered to pay for my hotel – I wasn’t a whore when you were offering to pay for my visit)

Never even had the desire to meet you – let alone for you to pay for my hotel.

“Whore” yup m’kay why? Because I do cosplay? Because I take off my clothes now during a pandemic because I’m disabled and need to pay my bills and we are in a RECESSION?

Because I blew through my life savings trying to stay afloat?

Because the jobs I was working paid under minimum wage and I have a college degree but can’t find work in my field due to the recession/furloughs/hiring freezes?

And those minimum wage jobs are taxed like hell and barely support cost of living (COLA) which is why people work multiple jobs to stay afloat?

Because they can’t save one fucking penny to get ahead.

Because nobody wants to actually support me or my dreams because they all want to “be my friend” so they can fuck me?

When I don’t want to fuck anybody –

Because I want to make babies with the love of my life and he recently bought me pizza?

Because I’m not actually a whore and there’s nothing wrong with sex workers.

I don’t actually “sell my body” 🧐

I don’t think anyone can actually “sell their body”. 🤔

If you mean “perform sex acts”, that isn’t anything I’m actually doing.

It’s called burlesque but I’m not very good.

I like to cosplay and roleplay tho cuz being an actor was always my dream, I still audition for parts (even reality TV shows), and I love getting to play dressup cuz I was always a Soldier/tomboy.

I don’t think what I am doing is sinful.

I’m trying to understand who I am as a human and a woman.

Not the part or role that everyone else wants me to play.

What I’m doing now is what I’ve always wanted to do.

Writing, photography, cosplay, guitar, it’s my thang.

The feedback I’ve been getting on my OnlyFans has improved my overall health and mental status / self-esteem.

I would say the feedback I have received has been priceless to my growth as a human and an artist.

There’s a lot of value on my OnlyFans and I’m trying to get better at my cosplay and my photography and I think it shows.

I appreciate your good feedback, your comments, likes, tips, gifts and subscriptions!

I also GREATLY appreciate the support on my Patreon as well!

You make this whore happy.

WOKE

Just keeping it real

And these aren’t the only jobs I’ve had since 2017 that I’ve seen and worked with my own eyes and dealt with management who didn’t give a fuck about our traditions or holidays

My god they drove nice cars though

they had nice everything

they always do

they have the nicest stuff don’t they

Fucking India 👀

Money is the root of all evil

The system is rigged and my sites are on India

👀

Let me know if the next spam account that bothers you are from India

Maybe we do need to put a wall up

👀

I know mine is made of fucking rust proof iron

Is that why you want to steal it?

You’re going to erect another huge temple and say it is for God?

Are you going to keep pushing porn and religion on us to make us feel guilty so you can take all our fucking money?

You even make money out of dying

It used to be ritualistic

Spiritual

Now it’s all about money and that’s all a human being is about from the time they are born and given a fucking Social Security number until they fucking die and even then you’re still taking their money

money they no longer have from the family that is still alive aren’t you because you’re fucking vapid aren’t you

👀

You’re still not making the fucking connection are you

Money originated in Asia

If it is spam related there’s a good chance India is involved

How many jobs have you had where you were worked to death – very little pay raises – rarely any breaks – yet – the owners and management and “uppers” are all you know from gasp *India*

That’s why they don’t give a fuck about our traditions or holidays and we’re always fucking working

The management is not working

They are sitting around a big fancy table with golden chalices and fancy curtains lined in gold

👀

They do come over here and take our goddamn jobs they do and they’re responsible for all the fucking spam pay me promotion accounts or anything trying to spam you for that matter

the emails that you get that are trying to spam you fucking India

👀

Banks need transparency

Banks need to be transparent

If my therapist has to report to the law that I’m a threat to society or myself – then banks should report when people are doing illegal activity with fucking money

👀

Also, what does India not have their hands in?

99.9% of all spam things I run into are India related

Change my mind

👀

Every god damn spam promotion pay account spamming me has been from India

Those tit for tat poetry things

India

👀

Scientist playing God – a checkmate for the NWO again 👀

Saw this floating around FaceDump

Here’s an actual link to the article from 2017

People in the comments were asking for the source

I quickly Googled the title 👀

👇👇👇

https://www.healio.com/news/infectious-disease/20170111/fauci-no-doubt-trump-will-face-surprise-infectious-disease-outbreak

Isolation

I’m so isolated and shut off from the world that the maintenance dude said he was worried about me when I didn’t answer the door 👀

I actually thanked him because there’s no one checking in on me 👀

Just because I write doesn’t mean I small talk or gossip

I am not a socialite

I am a Soldier (not a civilian)

I am an introvert

I don’t like the state of anything in the world

I’m unhinged

I can’t even go buy an egg sandwich or a Coke in the can at the goddamn gas station without getting into fucking World War III because everybody wants to make $20 an an hour with a three dollar attitude and terrible work ethic

I was making over $25 an hour for nearly 8 years with the DOD but I sank with the financial fucking recession and the government hiring freezes and the government furloughs but you don’t give a fuck about that do you?

You don’t give a fuck that I had to eat up my life savings and my retirement savings just to get through this fucking pandemic!

You don’t give a fuck about that do you? Cause I didn’t buy your fucking book or I don’t act like your best fucking friend!

There are many books and CDs I would actually like to buy I just can’t at the moment because I live paycheck to paycheck and every fucking dollar goes to paying my main cost of living which I’m barely doing – I’m living under my means, but you don’t give a fuck about that do you cause I’m not tit for tat!

Fake fake fake!!!!!!!

I’m not dying on the street!!!

(My therapist is calling me today finally – they’ve been trying to reach me for a long time) 👀

I get to let my doctor know that I stopped disassociating for 5 minutes to check the news, and now I’m more disengaged and paranoid. 👀

I get to let him know that I almost had World War III with the gas station clerk. 👀

There’s something seriously wrong with the world 👀

Feel free to blame me – as long as I get to stay away

Put me back in my foxhole!!!! 👀

Give me my M16A2 rifle! 👀

I am still a Soldier! 👀

*Realizes she’s stuck on the Titanic because all the rich people have locked her on the bottom of the Titanic and now they’re hanging out on boats that could’ve had more people watching me sink*

👀

The reason I don’t check in on people is because I don’t have the social abilities to communicate currently. 👀

And the rare few people that I do decide to check in on, 98% of them give me a fucking attitude in return.

Because narcissism

👀

And I refuse to be manipulated or controlled by you and you’re fucking everywhere aren’t you

👀

I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t so I just want to be alone 👀

And I don’t wanna get to know you because you just want to ask for me for free nudes

👀

Or my hand in marriage 👀

I’m not interested in you 👀

I’m wholly obsessed with 2 dudes and I have never once talked to my therapist about that sort of behavior 👀

They don’t want anything to do with me 👀

But I’m like Bush how he was with Congress when they passed shit into law and Bush said I don’t care and then he did all those “signing statements” because voting means absolutely fucking nothing and you and I no longer have rights because we’ve moved into a fucking Hitler state hello hello hello

👀

If money is the root of all evil, then banks need to be transparent and thus people where they spend and invest their money

And remove money from religion and politics which are the same entity

It’s one extreme or the other

👀

End times

So Denmark is playing Hitler with Mink

China has banned Bitcoin currency

Biden has his finger on the nuke button and is blaming Russia for the pipeline hack even though no evidence points to Russia

And the pipeline hack was paid in Bitcoin

*turns off news*

*schedules appointment with therapist*

*goes back to disassociating*

(The end isn’t going to happen overnight, it’s gonna be a long slow tedious process)

Apophis is on its way way

👀

China banned Bitcoin

*laughs insanely*

“Everybody gone mad”

“Everybody dog food”

3% of currency circulating is only actually physical tangible currency that you can put your hands on, the rest is fucking digital!

And I’m speaking about the US fucking dollar, not Bitcoin.

But I’ve just read that China has banned bitcoin and now there’s a lot of people in the world who hates Elon Musk

“You think that’s air you’re breathing now?” 🤔

New Free OnlyFans coming soon! 🥰

So I just sent the OnlyFans team a request on how to get a new free verified account started – I was dead serious about starting one – I’m not going anywhere (even though I can barely do shit at the moment, I do intend a full recovery from this COVID vaccine nightmare) –

I hope you are excited as me about the free account!

It will be FREE but you will have to subscribe to access the lewd (NOT NUDE) content.

This way I no longer get in trouble from Big Bro for not doing anything wrong at all – and maybe I can go back to having an actual personality where I don’t fear everything I post or say or hashtag. 💪

Nor, the erroneous reporting out of spite and jealousy. 🚫

I like having a private club and people want to see more of me and I’ve had several request on several different social sites and now I’ll have a place to direct them to see more (but if they want to see it all, it will require a subscription)! 🙃

Anyway, I’m really excited about starting the process for my new FREE OnlyFans!

I hope you are excited too! 🙌

I have heard your cries!

So I am expanding my doors!

I love you! 💕

As a reminder – I love doing cosplay and role play! I’m gonna keep at this! It’s what I wanted to do since I was a little girl – and I feel really excited about expanding my business, opening my doors (privately) and in a place where I can be as tacky as a fucking want even though I’m actually more classy than I am tacky but whatever

I do specialize in softcore but there’s an art to it and it’s more commonly known as like Kama Sutra or vampirism. 👀

It’s more about sensation and less about desensitizing.

🙌

Le vampyre and 1984 is now so it’s time to expand my doors because you’ve asked for more – and I don’t actually like publicly sharing more.

Again, lewds not nudes! You’ll have to be a big boy and pay if you wanna see it all.

But, I can go back to being my kinky seductive flirty vampire self oh my fucking God! I’m super fucking excited and I hope you will consider joining my free OnlyFans!

You asked, I complied! 🤪

Your wish is my command! 🤓

I’m still working on redoing my home studio and master bedroom. I don’t have shit hung anywhere. It looks like I’ve already died and the vultures have been here! 👀

Spring cleaning + reorganizing + downsizing = nightmare 🤪

Especially when you have no design skills at all and everything you currently have is a mix-mash of wtfisgoingon 😩

And then add some sort of glitch that makes it hard for you to let anything go even though you don’t even fucking want it

🤪

I don’t know why I’m holding onto all this shit and it’s gonna come out into a poem at some point 😷

Nine Inch Nails gig 🤩

I said I needed a NIN gig and I’ll be goddamned if the universe did not drop Nine Inch Nails as headliners right to my fucking front door 🤩

It wasn’t Bush I was calling for this time, it was Nine Inch Nails 🤩

I’ve literally been leaving his wife comments about how she’s living my dream life because she gets to make music with him and she’s having all these babies with him and she started like a new religion with him and like I want to do that with somebody and he’s the only guy I have ever asked to marry me and he did not say no

I said uni, it’s been a minute since I’ve seen NIN.

I literally said, “Universe, I need a NIN gig this year”

And bam

It says it right there, Daytona Beach, Nine Inch Nails – headlining Thursday November 11th

I don’t have any money to buy any concert tickets or to pay my bills but excuse me while I piss myself

I’ll figure out the money situation later

NIN November Daytona Beach 🤩

*pees self*

Photons

You changed me
When your photons
Interrupted my guile
And replaced my wrongdoings
With an infinite smile

© Delia Ross. 2021 / @poeeternal

75K poetry! 😻

Thank you for your light! 😻

I am a particle detector! 😻

Did you know that your photons, your light, will travel on through the universe forever?

Just like my love for you.

I love you forever!

I’ve decided pornosexuals are cheap as fuck

I’ve decided (when I’m better) and able to add/manage another social media site, I am going to add a FREE OnlyFans where I will post lewds, not nudes.

That way I don’t have to worry about getting in trouble with Big Bro about posting content that might be kind of seductive even though I’m fully clothed (because this has happened TWICE).

That way, I don’t have to yell at people on a daily basis that I don’t give out nudes for free.

I can at least direct them to a free place they can kind of see more and if they want to see the rest they’ll have to be a big big boy and fucking pay. 👀

So free lewd OnlyFans coming when I’m better and I don’t do XXX or porn.

I am a writer and artist. Not a porn actress promoting abnormal as normal. 👀

You can’t drink other people’s piss. 👀

And I’m not pricing my content under minimum wage (even though I often run promotions).

I have boundaries and I reckon Edgar Allan Poe did as well which is why he died on the fucking street hungry and broke even though he served his country honorably and the local press wouldn’t even publish his fucking content. 👀

Well, I have a problem with my content also not getting published or getting reported erroneously or when people are always wanting my art for free even though I already give away enough of my art for free.

The guys are cheap and they’re going to continue pushing for girls to be even more lewd on social media so they don’t have to pay anything at all or they can pay less than a fucking meal deal and get to see girls doing shit to themselves that you shouldn’t be seeing for that price. 👀

But because the porn industry is so shallow and want everyone’s money, they price their content ridiculously low

And let’s face it, actors are getting pissed and shit on, how much should you pay for that? 👀

But now these really cheap guys can buy them stuff off their Amazon wishlist and watch them use it in scenes and that’s my fucking competition now so I quit

👀

“Why are you single, you are beautiful”

Pornosexuals and the lack of decent men 👀

“But we’re good friends remember?”

No

The couple things that I gave him were links from my blog that contain soft nudity because I don’t send nudes via PM or DM. I don’t work for free .

I don’t work for free and you can’t “get to know me better” for free nudes either. 👀

Yes, I have boundaries.

And respect for my life and body even tho you don’t have respect for anyone or anything in life.

Except pornosexuals and porn stars.

Porn or religion eh?

*jumps from roof*

CDC And FDA Trusted By Only Half Of Americans : NPR

A new Harvard poll shows that only half of Americans trust the CDC — other health agencies were rated even lower. During a pandemic, trust is critical to the success of a public health response.
— Read on www.npr.org/2021/05/13/996331692/poll-finds-public-health-has-a-trust-problem

Not very shocking that half of Americans think the CDC is full of shit. 👀

You can now include me in that list.

I’m not doing good

I’m not getting better

If I do die from this

I need him to know that I love him

Love is the only commodity I have left

The only thing that matters

He needs to know I love him

If I die, I need him to get better, keep writing, and go on

You’ve got to go on…

Love again

I’m not going to die in that hospital among strangers

I’ll likely be crawling into a hot bath and thinking of how much I love you

It’s starting to hurt to breathe

I’m not gonna die in that hospital

I love you

And also

Thank you for the love on my latest Instagram post!

If anything I do garners more than 30 views, I’m okay with it –

Because I can’t even perform in front of one person

👀

I have THE WORST stage frights 👀

I forget lines

I forget the fact that I even have a personality

👀

So thank you for your visits on my Instagram too.

https://www.instagram.com/p/CO6ijSglAb1/?igshid=fwsbt3j9pllr

75k 😍

But it just hit 75,000

I blinked and missed it hitting 75K and now it’s nearly had another 1k views and is at light-speeds racing towards 100,000 visits to my blog

In a blink of an eye 👀

It means something to me

All of this –

All of this mess I bleed forth daily

I would’ve already been dead on the street if it wasn’t for you – visiting my blog

👀

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